The Story I'll Tell

Hello Prayer Closet Warriors!

When I was a little girl, I had this yearning to be a daddy’s girl. I just knew in my heart of hearts that I was supposed to be a daddy’s girl! But here’s the thing, my earthly father passed away a few months after I was born, but I had this void I couldn’t fill and this feeling I could never shake.

I viewed my grandfather as my dad and he adored me. He made me feel like I was never forgotten, and filled a spot my earthly father couldn’t fill. But last year on November 9th, my grandfather passed away, and I was so angry at God. I didn’t understand why he would take away the ONLY person I knew who loved me unconditionally. Why couldn’t I have had him here a little while longer? God did answer those questions for me. I wouldn’t be where I am today if my grandfather was still here. I sat under the love of my grandfather and wasn’t growing. I was comfortable and hadn’t acknowledge God as my ultimate provider just yet. God never makes mistakes, always does what’s best for you, even when it hurts and doesn’t make sense.

I find myself turning 32 today, and I feel so LOVED by my Heavenly Father, Abba. Even though I felt like I was walking in this world fatherless, that wasn’t my truth. I didn’t realize how often I overlooked His love while I was searching for someone to be present physically. God has always been and never will stop being my Father.

One thing I now know for sure is… I AM A DADDY’S GIRL, I am loved by Him unconditionally and my Daddy don’t play about me!

Today, I just want to honor and praise my Father. Abba, thank You for loving me. You are so worthy of all the praise, glory and honor. I thank you for changing my perspective in what seems like hopeless situations. Thank You for Your sacrifice, so that I am able to live in freedom. Please help me to set my eyes on what is good and pleasing to You. I lack NOTHING, because You are EVERYTHING I’ll ever need. The peace that You have given me has strengthened my walk, and prepared me for my next. Thank you for Your love and mercy. You didn’t have to do it, but You did it!! In Jesus name, Amen.

One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 139. The way the words jump off the page to me always stirs me up. I want to encourage you today to sit with these words. Open your heart and let them minister to ALL the broken places in you. Let Abba fill what you have been trying to fill on your own for so long. Let Him be your perfect parent and show you how much He loves you. Blessings to you all❤️

PSALMS 139

For the choir director: A psalm of David.

Lord, you have examined my heart

and know everything about me.

You know when I sit down or stand up.

You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.

You see me when I travel

and when I rest at home.

You know everything I do.

You know what I am going to say

even before I say it, Lord.

You go before me and follow me.

You place your hand of blessing on my head.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

too great for me to understand!

I can never escape from your Spirit!

I can never get away from your presence!

If I go up to heaven, you are there;

if I go down to the grave, you are there.

If I ride the wings of the morning,

if I dwell by the farthest oceans,

Even there your hand will guide me,

and your strength will support me.

I could ask the darkness to hide me

and the light around me to become night—

But even in darkness I cannot hide from you.

To you the night shines as bright as day.

Darkness and light are the same to you.

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body

and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!

Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,

as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.

Every day of my life was recorded in your book.

Every moment was laid out

before a single day had passed.

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.

They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them;

they outnumber the grains of sand!

And when I wake up,

you are still with me!

O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!

Get out of my life, you murderers!

They blaspheme you;

your enemies misuse your name.

O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?

Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you?

Yes, I hate them with total hatred,

for your enemies are my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;

test me and know my anxious thoughts.

Point out anything in me that offends you,

and lead me along the path of everlasting life

I love you all and pray this blesses you

Sincerely,

Natasha

The Prayer Closet Mama ™