Run your race and shake off your feelings…

Good Afternoon

Prayer Closet Warriors!!!

Can I be completely transparent with you right now? Yes?

Ok, as exciting as this launch has been for me, the fear about it has been lurking right around the corner. The very first thing I noticed this past week was the lack of support. Now mind you, it hasn’t even been 30 days yet… (SMH) but, it still made me feel a little upset and sad. The support I “expected” to receive from some people in my life hasn’t shown up…

A few thoughts started running through my mind like:. “Wow! I’ve always supported them, but now they’re silent… Are they not happy for me? Were they EVER happy for me?”

I began to ask myself. “Why am I having these feelings right now?, “Why am I feeling so overwhelmed & anxious?” “Girl, what are you getting emotional about”

See, I was always the girl who took a back seat on things, who never wanted to be seen or noticed, because I didn’t like the spotlight. I would quiet down who I was, and let the world depict who I am. Now, I have this amazing opportunity to show the world who God called me to be & Most importantly who God is. I am a living, breathing, walking, talking testimony who God called to share the Gospel. It very uncomfortable to be this vulnerable right.

During my prayer time yesterday morning, God reminded me of a vision He gave me a few months ago. It was of me running on a track, and in the stands was God. He was holding up a sign and cheering me on. He was THE ONLY one there; the only who was yelling, clapping, holding a sign. He told me, “Natasha, I need you to remember that I am and will always be your biggest fan. I am your biggest supporter. The moment you take your eyes off of Me, and look for someone or something else in the stands, YOU WILL SLOW DOWN! Run your race, keep your head up and focus. Baby girl, if you fall down, don’t worry, I got you. I will come out of the stands and pick you back up again.”

I know God is still refining me. I know there’s a lot He’s still uprooting and removing in me. Yes, It feel very uncomfortable to be this vulnerable right now but, God is worthy of all the praise. He deserves our best. When you are doing the work for the Kingdom of God,  remember why you started… Don't look at who will be there, and who is or isn’t cheering you on. Let down all expectations you put on yourself and others. Be free from people pleasing, comparison, and that images you made up in you head of how it’s suppose to look.

Because your biggest supporter will ALWAYS be the Lord!

Sunday night, I went to my first Gospel concert!!! I saw Maverick City and Kirk Franklin perform at the TD Gardens in Boston, MA.

People. when I tell you it was the BEST concert I’ve ever been to, there honestly isn’t enough words to highlight that moment. At one point during the concert, Abba had me look around and really take it all in. During my prayer time Monday morning He said, “last night I showed you just a small glimpse of what it will be like in Heaven.” 😩😭

I am so thankful to be a part of the Kingdom.

Sincerely,

Natasha

The Prayer Closet Mama ™

PS: So, I know I promised to share about how God gave me my Heavenly language, and I will. That testimony is loading and will be released shortly. Stay tuned!!! Love you, Be encouraged!