Big or Small, lies are lies.

Hello Prayer Closet Warriors!

Ok, full transparency… last week I failed a test.

A test I could have EASILY passed if I had listened to God. The test I failed was about lying🙄😮‍💨 and the thing I lied about was SMALL! Something I didn’t even need to lie about. I heard the Holy Spirit tell me before the situation happened, “Tash, just be honest”.

Not only was I caught in the lie, but I also tried to undo what I did. Me trying to undo what I did translated to me trying to fix a lie, with another lie! The words weren’t flowing, my tongue felt numb and my palms were sweating. I know Jesus was like, “GIRL! YOU HAD ONE JOB, and I gave you the instructions” 🤦🏾‍♀️ Y’all, this was literally an open-book test.

It was ONLY by God’s grace this person didn’t call me out on the spot. I know he knew I was lying. The evidence was all there.

Talk about foolishness huh… I started feeling ashamed, embarrassed, and disappointed in myself… I also felt stupid and pretty annoyed. Old me would have ignored it and tried to bury it, but I knew I couldn’t do that.

I prayed but I was still wrestling with myself. I called my sister and good friend Melissa, and told her what happened. She prayed with me. Her words of encouragement helped me to face this again.

Crying, full of everything I was feeling, I sat down with Abba and grabbed my journal.

He said, “Tasha, call out to me! Sin waits by your door waiting for you to fail. But, baby girl, I am right there to guide you. Don’t beat yourself up. It happened and you learned. The weight is heavy and I don’t want you to carry it. Let it go.”

He also directed me to scripture:

Leviticus 5:5 says,

“When you become aware of your guilt in any of these ways you must confess your sin.”

I am thankful that even in our sins he still loves us. 😭😭

Why is it so easy for a lie to come out before the truth? There’s no safety in telling it. I realized that as a child, I thought there was safety. I had a false perception that lying would protect me/ protect others. Hiding the stain would be better than washing it.

I asked the Holy Spirit to remove my lying tongue and to kill the root that causes it. I know the truth will always set me free, and help me be more confident in telling the truth. I desire to be a woman of integrity; I want to have a clear conscience. I know I can never be perfect but, my Father is and so is His Love.

Genesis 4:6-7 says,

“Why are you so angry?” the LORD asked Cain. “Why do you look so dejected? You will be accepted if you do what is right. But if you refuse to do what is right, then watch out! Sin is crouching at the door, Eager to control you. But you must subdue it and be its master.”

Close your eyes for a moment, what imagery do you see after reading this verse in Genesis? For me, I see a lion waiting to attack its prey and it aligns with scripture.

In 1 Peter 5:8, the enemy is waiting to pounce on the next believer…

“Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.”

The enemy is waiting for you to make your next mistake. He is ready to torment and ridicule you when you fall short. The Bible says in multiple scriptures “Do not be deceived!”. Sin may seem like protection, easier, enjoyable, and fulfilling for the moment, but the guilt that is attached to it will slowly kill you.

Roman 6:23 says,

For the wages of sin is death, But the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.

God always forgives you no matter how deep you think your sin is. Confession is a gift to us to be free in God's love. He already knew what you were going to do before you did it and was waiting for you to come and be cleaned. Your sins won’t be thrown in your face again because they will already be forgotten.

1 John 1:9

But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.

I love you all. Blessings

Sincerely,

Natasha

The Prayer Closet Mama ™